Autumn is nearly here and with deep breathes I strive to keep faithful to my internal and external journey. The world asks of you everyday. Not only society and 'the world' in the more abstract sense of it. But people around you ask of you too, constantly, in ways that go beyond words. It's a weird balance to achieve, how much we can give without giving ourselves away, where do we meet each other in a free, fair, balanced way. How do we say 'I can give you more until I am able to give this much to my own self, without sounding and feeling selfish. Self centred. How can we feel peacefully entitled to our own space and time for growing and getting stronger. Autumn is nearly here. I know what my path is but I often get stuck in this struggle of being thrown off my path by little things. Little things that have no name and are hardly visible.....but the weight of them can still be so strong, so perceptible, so unbalancing.