Monday, November 04, 2013

Today, my heart sings!

Sunday, November 03, 2013

But my door remains open and so does my heart...

Wanderings of the mind

And sometimes you think you might be ready to rebuild something, you may miss things, people or places that once made sense. But then you might think might think twice and realize that for those things to make sense again a whole world would have to change. And it hasn't changed....not inside you and certainly not outside you.

And there is sadness sometimes, but one must know what ones misses and how things looking back or looking forward may seem more promissing then they actually can be.

So it's back to the basis I guess....those who whish to be here are here, now and always, in a particulary special place. Those who rejected that place therefore don't belong here.

And here I am again, changing seasons, letting life flow, opening my arms to new knowledge. And the essential hasn't changed: the ones I love, strong and reliable relationshisps, the nature, the seasons, wandering, learning, creating, loving, living.

Trying to be better.

Trying to keep the feelings in my heart pure.

....but being truthful, aknowledging we are not always noble or good. Knowing we all do what we can.

The big secret....I will admit my mistakes to all who will admit theirs....but those are rare creatures, and when you find them there is no need to admit mistakes. Something always speaks louder.

Life is a blessing. Thank you.

Tuesday, June 18, 2013

Tonight, I feel I have a lot to be thankful for: that we are alive and well, that we have each other, that even though we get bored and this may not be exactely where we would like to be we are still very blessed. And I am also thankful for all that has happened in the past that led me here. For having photography and dance and drawing and crafts in general. For being hopeful about life, for having the conditions to be hopeful about life. For being near the sea, even though we have no proper summer. Because life always shows us wonderful people.

...and on a very special note, because I am so thankful for having people who still, after all this time and in spite of the distance, make me feel I am not alone. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

Wednesday, March 27, 2013


Between incursions into the past and fears about the future or the potencial present it has been a curious night, full of reflexions. The certainty that remains, though, is that is the immediate present I have to concentrate in.

I have thought reflected much about matters that needed reflection upon, mainly for the sake of fairness and clearness. I can now see many mistakes of mine, but can also see so much beauty in memories that has been tainted and distorted by most recent events. There are still no answers, but my heart is calmer, because I can face things more clearly, all the good I did and everything I did wrong, all my less noble feelings.

...and that was the past.

On a whole different note there's the future or the potencial present, and regarding that I can only do what we all can do: Deal with what comes when it comes as there will be no answers written in the wind or in the tea leaves, so answers will come when answers will come.

A sentence I read today, randomly, in the internet, I have no idea who wrote it, but it resonated a lot in me: 


And I realized how many different stories I've been telling myself, and how, when fear creates stories, even the characters we think we know are just that, characters, and don't even correspond to the real people we associate them with. 

Fears are stories we create, and maybe, just maybe, we should try to be creative in all other sorts of ways. And I feel I need to create in order to avoid starting creating fears. 

The present, and only the present, saves us from uncertainty, fears, guilt, bad energies, and a bunch of other bad stuff you can think off yourself. 

...and so here we go again, half forgotten for a short (or maybe not so short) while, trying to be in the present. 

All the essential has been said and found. Cease the moment, live in the present. And still, here we go, fighting the same ghosts, trying to explain the universe in words, racionalizing things, overanalizing things, talking about how important it is to live in the present but oh so often forgetting to actually try and do that. 

So this is what I will try. (...that and also trying to improve myself. getting rid of fears would probably do the trick)

( I didn't mean to relate title and picture, but I will keep it as it happened spontaneously)

Another reminder aka note to self: Talk to people, be honest with them, tell them what you need to tell them. Don't hold ressentments, talk. If you can. But try to keep that in mind.

Saturday, March 23, 2013


I feel good. Something is breaking free.

Thursday, March 21, 2013

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

A peaceful heart brings good fortune, a peaceful mind brings good health. My hapiness needs the peace whithin.  It doesn't take much for me to recover hopefulness, especially these days. Sending all my love to the ones I love, to the obvious ones and to the unlikely ones. Because love is needed.

It never took much for me to spot true beauty.....that much hasn't changed. And there is loads of it around, if only one cares to look for the obvious places and in the unlikely ones.

Sunday, March 10, 2013


The air is again fresh and new winds approach with good energies, a clear heart and a promising path. Let's re-start, as we have so well learned how to. But keep close to you the ones who always brought goodness to your heart and keep track of your essence.

Wednesday, February 27, 2013

The right reasons

The thing is, I want to do to do the right things for the right reasons. I don't want to be kind to someone who was/is important(?) to me only because I know that would be the ''right thing to do''. That's moralism talking in my head, and although the principles are good....I still have deeper principles speaking up inside.

If you knew me well, from all your life, would you like me to be kind to you for the kindness sake or because deep down I would feel that kindness.

How can one find the harmony of a given situation if your heart believes at the same time that different things are ''right''.

Why does moralism and ''sense of should'' drive us away from our true principles.

And dare I say it? Am I also afraid of karma, of consequences. Do I feel compeled to do good because I want my life to have a clean karma?

And am I so horrible or am I just a normal human being who is more aware of their ''darker'' side than average? I know the answer for this one.

Doing the right thing seems to be a lot more straight forward when we are young and full of false certainties. 

In the lines of the horizon and my beloved sea I seek to find some balance, i try to listen to that inner voice that is supposed to know everything. But I remain human and answers are not clear.

My inner peace is not shaken and deep down, nor is the voice of my conscience. But we human beings are full of human passions and those, ah those, never made it easy to listen to inner voices.

So I remain quiet, waiting for either wizer days of better reasons.

Sunday, February 24, 2013

In the semi darkness

Sometimes a bit of darkness is needed if one is to go back into the light.

Do not fully embrace, but do not deny it. Accept it and allow yourself to deal with it. See the beauty in it, aknowledge the hardship of it, but come back into brighter territories.

Friday, February 22, 2013

Lake series in B&W

Creating internal spring...cheesy as this may sound!


These were done the other day...the one very good winter day we got this year: clear blue skies, cold but no wind. I even had an icecream by the the warmth of my car...!

Playing around with the toy camera it, it's pretty.