Friday, December 26, 2014

Weird are the days when you realize that someone who was once meaninful to you is permanently disappearing into the shadows of indiference. Empty memories are like dance full of tecnique but without soul....they have no particular effect on you, apart from the oddness this lack of effect causes. Weird.

Wednesday, December 17, 2014

It's been a long time since I don't blog....and I am enjoying creating a whole new blog elsewhere :)

Sunday, March 02, 2014

Materiality can be overwhelming, and not many people understand just how overwhelming it can be. I wish we had soft words and bright spirits, I wish we were able to pull each other up more consistently. I wish we could all take the necessary steps to make other happier. But we are only human, and all we're left with is the everyday trying.

Grateful, so grateful to be alive and for the life I do have, still I sit here waiting for the courage to organize this space, this sanctuary, waiting soon, so very soon, for welcoming changes yet once again. Still, I wish we could feel the joy more consistently, how to bring the optimism into the soul of the pessimist?

And I breathe, breathe deeply, and ask God or some unifying power to give me strenght. So much strenght is necessary to be sweet and kind, it can be so much easier to put our defenses up...

I miss my special people, the ones who were always there and will always be, but phisically far away. I miss the sun and the long days. I miss the freshness of not feeling the weight of worry because there's nothing more than the present and sweet dreams. But I cherish so much what I have today, and wouldn't change it for the world.

Necessarily, I have to close my ears to harsh words that are said with no real meaning but to vent the frustration in one's heart. Not all the cumplicity I have always wished for is here, but I am stronger even than the lack of it, and there are very good reasons for that.

I wish for the sun and breeze inside and I will find them myself. The door is open for whoever wants to join me. We must give the example.

Monday, November 04, 2013

Today, my heart sings!

Sunday, November 03, 2013

But my door remains open and so does my heart...

Wanderings of the mind

And sometimes you think you might be ready to rebuild something, you may miss things, people or places that once made sense. But then you might think might think twice and realize that for those things to make sense again a whole world would have to change. And it hasn't changed....not inside you and certainly not outside you.

And there is sadness sometimes, but one must know what ones misses and how things looking back or looking forward may seem more promissing then they actually can be.

So it's back to the basis I guess....those who whish to be here are here, now and always, in a particulary special place. Those who rejected that place therefore don't belong here.

And here I am again, changing seasons, letting life flow, opening my arms to new knowledge. And the essential hasn't changed: the ones I love, strong and reliable relationshisps, the nature, the seasons, wandering, learning, creating, loving, living.

Trying to be better.

Trying to keep the feelings in my heart pure.

....but being truthful, aknowledging we are not always noble or good. Knowing we all do what we can.

The big secret....I will admit my mistakes to all who will admit theirs....but those are rare creatures, and when you find them there is no need to admit mistakes. Something always speaks louder.

Life is a blessing. Thank you.