Very bad things about me...continuation

5) My absolute lack of tolerance with people who have no insight towards themselves. I can´t help it, I can feel myself being mean, but I hate when people choose not to face their real selvs. It gets even worst when people are trying to show off, when it becomes obvious that they are trying to show the world they are a certain type of person. I just get this impulse to be really really mean and make them know I can actually see that they are showing off. I feel like a really bad person then, because I wan´t to destroy their masks, and I often can´t help it.

6) I hate it when I find myself showing off as well. (and it´s really annoying, because I know I am showing off, and I hate myself for doing so). It´s not happening a lot these last years, thankfully.

7) The fact that if people try to compete with me, I will get into the fight. In a general way I have no real interest in competing with anyone, but the moment someone shows a tad bit of competition towards me, it all changes and I feel this need to tell them without words 'get out of my way, you´re no challenge for me!'.

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  1. Natalia2 December 2009 at 04:34

    I understand. The hardest thing to do is to look in the mirror and really see yourself for who you are. I think you are unique for doing so. Most people however are not aware of themselves. They lie and they believe the lie. Nothing you can say will make them realize that they are not living genuinely. Not until they are ready to stop hating themselves. But don't blame them. It's hard to face the truth: I wish I was mother Theresa, but I'm not. I'm petty. I wish I was a genius, but I'm not. I'm just an average person. Sometimes I wish I could lie to myself.

    I relate to you.

    Thank you for stopping by my blog.

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